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plz view my photo album to see the pics taken during the mumbai trip i had recently...:)
So we come to the end of yr 2006...times really flies so fast that we sumtimes dont realize it...another 356 days has gone by....the past few days....i started to think over wat i did in the yr 2006...have it been a yr of achievements or a yr of failure and broken heart?have i fulfiled it as the way God would want me to fulfil it??Have i make a difference in other ppls life?
I guess 2006 has been a totally crazy yr for me...No doubt there are many heartbreaks and sadness along the way but yet in between those hardship,happiness and joy springs out fr the dry dessert...my friends have been there to cheer me up when i was down and were there to booty which me when i was feeling 'itchy' hehe....Ive made new close frens and also made frens with the wrong kind of ppl who are ready to break me and bring me down....
Studies was like a roller coaster ride...ive finished my 1st year mbbs and am now in the 2nd year...I think i played too much during the begining to 2nd yr that i was unaware how fast time was flying for me...i dined,shoped, went for the movies,went for coffee,go late for class and sit around in the house doing practically nothing...suffered the consequences during my 1st sessional...hah!!am hoping i wouldnt fail...thats my wish as of now...during this exams was also my 1st time in my life i cried after my exams besides me crying for not being able to do add maths in form 4 and i have an exams the next day...it was after my pharmacology viva exams....got screwed really badly by the lecturer and i couldnt answer most of his questions...and to add to that i did badly in my practicals before the viva...but that only made me strive harder in the following exams....:)
I wouldnt say that my new ended well...was really looking foward to going back this time to be away fr ppl considering the fact on how f**ked up my life has turn out to be at the end of 2006...ppl just have a way to make other ppl's life a living hell...but no point looking back into that...during this time back home i really have a good time to let go all the stress i carried and to let go all the pain i felt...and again its tru my family i start to see life as it used to be...The one kind of ppl i cant stand are hypocrites...in front of u they are so good to u but behind ur back they are a total different person...all they want is to look good in front of ppl....The one place u cant meet hyprocrites are in our families...and thats y its always nice to be home....huhu....
I really do not know wat 2007 holds for me but like one song says..."its a new world,its a new life,its a new start" yupz...its gonna be a new start for me again...and hope that when i return to india things will look towards the brighter side and will be more joyful and prosperous one...With that i pray that God will be guiding me tru and thats my prayer for all too....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
ps-i havent think of a new yr resolution yet...hmmm...hehe....but will think for it soon....til then...i gotta go....sleepy!!
Where Is Your Heart
I don't believe in the smile that you leave
When u walk away
And say goodbye
Well,i don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine
Where is your heart?
'cause i dont really feel you
Where is your heart?
What i really want is to believe you
Is it so hard to give me what i need?
I want your heart to bleed
Thats all im asking for
Where is your heart?
I dont understand
Your love is so cold
Its always me that is reaching out
For your hand
And I've always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin' to the ground
A dreamer followin' his dreams
It seems so much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
oh,anytime you need
Baby,its just you and me
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you wanna be mine
Was surfing the net jnow and i suddenly thought bout the cartoon,the american tale...about a little mouse(cant remember his name) who got seperated from his family when they were moving to america....and so,in the movie,the poor little thing was looking for his family....and in one point,he became really sad and nearly given up hope...and so he sang this very famous song-somewhere out there.....
Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale blue night,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.
Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there
And even though i know
How very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star
And when the night will start to sing
the lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there
If love can see us through,
Then,we'll be together
Somewhere out there,out there where dreams come true....
I love this song....to hear just click here ->somewhere out there
this song makes me miss many ppl so much....esp a special someone....though sometimes it may seem like the distance apart is too far,but it helps to know tat we all are under the same big sky...and tat makes the distance smaller....i feel loved tonight.....
Song on laptop:Everyday I love You by Ronan Keating
Was chatting to my brother,Isaac today and he told me that his teacher called him a gas molecule because he has low concentration....As funny as it may seem,i think im also is like a gas molecule....i realize today,that i can hardly spend more than 20 minutes,seated on my chair,studying my patho....man,my studies is really in deep shit...Now with the riot alarm in mangalore,and the 48 hours curfew,we have no college nor posting(YES!!) and we are not allowed to go out(DAMN)....A suitable time to be studying,i know,but haha....the time spent on my chair is not long enough to even warm it...Ill walk around my room,walk to the kitchen(one disadvantage of having a fridge) or go surf the net...Its been 28 hours since ive not been out of my house and i think i only spent less than 2 hours of it reading the 2 pages in my harsh mohan patho book...good going adri....
It really sux that I cant get out of the house...Goodness sake,its friday today....supposed to have dance class now....yea,btw,im into ballroom dancing now....Took up ballroom dancing class since sept 7....so far,ive learn 2 dance- quickstep and jive ....its something different from studying(not that im studying also...haha) but its an interesting way of exercising...just too bad,we would need a partner if we wanna dance...and in the dance class itself,there are very little guys compared to the amount of girls....there is once,there is only 3 guys for 10 gals...haha...so patheticly sad...but as long as we had fun...that wat matters most....hmmmm
anyways,my concentration is running dy...im now thinking of the fridge in the kitchen...haha....til then...adios!
my darling vodka
Lonelines has one company and its me.....no matter how i am in the midst of so many ppl,yet this loneliness kept haunting me....Today i realized how lonely i am....so many days of being felt loved and needed and wanted but that loneliness just wont leave me alone....if i promise ill be there for my friends and loved one to hold the tears fr falling fr their eyes and to take away all their fear...but who's gonna be there for me when im sad or when im scared...who's gonna hold me tight and tell me that everything is gonna be all right?when everyone has turn away and when the world has turn so cold,who's gonna keep me warm and who's gonna stay by my side?why am i sitting here,crying in silence and nobody here is here to comfort me?
Never felt this lonely before....evrybody has sumone but who do i have?
Song on laptop: Drive myself crazy by N'sync
Days and hours have passed so fast,before knowing it,its already been 1 month since ive been back here...things have been crazy...hardly any time for myself...hardly anytime to sit and study(even when there is time to do so,but...haha...will be too lazy to study)
My classes starts at 8am everyday.Then at 9.30am we would all have posting in the hospitals for 3 hours.The bus leave from my college at 9.00am and being me,ill take my own sweet own time to get into the bus and would have to stand the whole way to the hospital(actually the hospital is really near to the college but i have no idea why does the bus driver wanna take the long way! a 5 mins auto ride becomes a 15 min bus ride)Pack like sardin in the bus with the bad road condition makes sleeping in the bus a really impossible thing...During posting,im in unit III,OPD.there,the doctor will take classes for us,explaining to us about how to check patients and all then would ask us to go to the wards to try watever she taught on the patients and write case sheats...I really look foward to it at 1st...i mean,finally,this is wat medicine is all about...but soon enough,i became so discourage because
1. the language barrier...all the patients can only speak kannada(the local language here)effective from this year,they have stopped providing translaters...so it sucks for us...in my unit,there isnt local students,so seeing patients is quite difficult...we are provided with a language handbook but how much can we learn from that?we can ask questions but when they answer,we wont know wat they saying....haha...(sourab,where are my language classes??!!)
2. some of the patients are not cooperative.we're been scolded by 2 patients so far and some just wont let us cheak on them....ugh...
then at 12pm,after taking attendance,i will go back to my house and afternnon classes will start at 2pm til 5pm most of the days except mon,wed(if its microbiology lab) and saturday...the routine repeats itself everyday,even on saturday...so by the end of the week,ill be so exhausted already...so ive been bunking saturday morning classes 3 weeks in a row dy...hehe...cant wake up mar...then come sunday,still need to wake up early to go church....im not implying that i dun like going church...in fact,all week im looking foward for sundays...its a day,i can go meet friends and be rejuvenate after one long week...
well,so far,since one week ive been back here...ive been enjoying myself lah...i moved out of hostel and is staying in an apartment now.so far,im loving it!no curfew and no stupid mess food we have to eat...and did i mention,i love my house...i think we did a great job decorating it...the hall is still abit empty but we trying our best to make it homey and cosy....its not far from my college...its in fact just behind my college...but haha...we still rush to class everyday.Once in the morning and the other time in the afternoon....haha...but its ok,some stress is good sumtimes....hahahahah....Most of the malaysian gals are staying here...plus alot of seniors...my neighbour are really nice but we do find weird ones too(they keep staring at us)...im staying on the 7th floor and the lift we us to come up is freakin slow!!!like snail!!!!haha....
me!!!!
my apartment before the furniture came in...haha
Song on laptop : Neon by John Mayer
I still remember times in school when after a long vacation,our english teachers would ask us to write about our holidays...I used to hate writting those essays...Sometimes it makes you realize that your holidays have not been so great after all...Wat is a weekend in another country compared to just sitting at home watching tv everyday?Makes you feel that your holidays is nothing worth writting about...hahah...
And today im sitting here wondering what to blog about(coz im too bored at home) so i thought,hey,why not write about my holidays...like old days in school...Not that my holidays is anything fun or interesting,something worth to write about..But no harm in writting about it right?
Well,i havent been going out alot this holidays...Its due to many reasons i believe...One big reason is because i dont have the car this time...both my parents are working,one in the morning,the other in the afternoon...So at those times,they would always need the car.Then another factor that most of my friends have went back to college dy...and furthermore,there isnt any nice place to go shop in kuching.I hate shopping alone.My mum isnt much of a shopper so she ussually wont want to follow me go shopping...so sumtimes i just dont have the mood to go out...After all,when else will i have the chance to laze around at home,wake up in the afternoon and watch tv and dvds at home the whole time???Once college starts again,i will be sitting in front of the books...no time to laze around...So better make use of this chance wisely,right??
Ive been helping alot in the kitchen,learning how to cook different and harder dishes,like stew chicken and pork...i also learned how to make sushi...hehe....I have no idea what caused my mum to be such a sushi-maker fanatic.so ive been her helping hand and the other day i was main chef...heheh...found out that it isnt so hard to make sushi after all...and the ingredients arent hard to find...Ive come up with my own steps to make sushi below...
Ingredients
For the rice
4 cups of fragrant rice
apple cider or rice vinegar
salt and sugar to taste
pieces of seaweed
cucumber,cut long
artificial crab stick,cut into halves
tuna
fried egg
(any other stuffings u like)
sushi mat
roller
Direction
1.cook the rice.Once cooked,let it stand for 10 minutes.After that,add a few tablespoons of sugar and a few pinches of salt,according to taste...Then add 2 capfuls of apple cider.Mix
2. let the rice cool down
3. Get ready the other ingredients
4. Once
the rice have cooled down,cover the sushi mat with plastic.Put the seaweed on top of it...Then spread the rice on 3/4 of the seaweed piece.Then,putting another piece of plastic on top,roll the rice with a roller to get a even,flat,thin layer of rice...make sure you cover the edge of the seaweed too.
5. remove the top plastic and place the stuffings about 5cm fr the edge nearer to your side.
6. Once done,roll the seaweed over and pull on the other side to make the sushi compact.Once done,cut the sushi to be serve...
the process
the product
yummy yum yum sushi....:D
the cleaning up needed to do....bluek...o_O MUM!!!!!
This should make about 8 rolls of sushi...
So there you have it.....Other than that,ive been tending my dad's garden...would water his 'jungle' every evening....nutting to do mar....i remember,i used to tend his garden(we still had a real garden then with grass and all) when my dad was studying in semenanjung malaysia.Would trim the golden duranta and bougainvillea once in two weeks.pull out those weed and 'lalang'.I guess i always have a green hand...haha...thanks to my dad i guess...haha...Now, as i watch those flowers outside,i can see them grow as days goes by,some even starting to bloom with flowers dy...really thank God for his creation that we here can enjoy them....:D God is really creative isnt He??
pics fr my dad's 'jungle'
Im currently enjoying the company of my family back home...i know ill miss all these company once i go back...wont be listening to Daniel's funny laughter and Isaac's crazy jokes.Wont hear my parent's constant nagging...Sigh....Feeling homesick already.Haha...
my crazy family
Lastly,though ive been at home most of the time but im enjoying my holidays with the company of my family and ahem,not to mention the unlimited internet connection...:D And this is wat matters most...You can find joy and excitment in the midst of your family too!!!This is one holiday i will never forget...
til then!!
my mum asking me to help her make pumpkin cake now...gosh,how i hate pumpkin!!!
Sumthing i found to be really sweet...how many guys out there actually know how to treat their woman right?How many can make a girl melt away and takes her breath away?How many can promise their gal that he will look after her til the end of lifetime?How many are willing to sacrifice everything for their woman coz she is worth it?How many actually love a woman? :)
Have you ever really love a woman-Bryan Adams
To really love a woman
To understand her,you've got to know her deep inside
Hear every thought,see every dream,and give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
you know you really love a woman
When you love a woman,you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman,you tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me,have you ever really...really really ever loved a woman
To really love a woman,let her hold you
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You've got to breath her,really taste her
til you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman
Bridge:
You've got to
give her some faith,hold her tight,a little tenderness
You've got to treat her right
She will be there for you taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman
And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
Song on laptop: Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi
Note: I can sense that this blog is going to be rather DEPRESSING,yes,depressing is the word..So do bear with me for a moment....If you dont like reading depressing post then i guess its not too late to stop reading now and change to a more merry blog...
The time is 3.30pm and my bro,mum and I are walking in Saberkas to get my bro a black shirt for the Band Concert tomolo night...As i was walking and looking around,i realize that i was very under-dressed compared to the other people around...Looking down at myself,i was wearing my favourite old pink baby tee,3/4pants and flip flops...i most probably looked like i was going to the pasar malam or to the veggie market...For once,i felt so unattractive and very unhappy with myself...Taking a peep at the mirror on the wall,instead of feeling better,i felt worst...Gosh,wat am i compared to all those skinny gals bouncing around in the shopping mall...all i am is just a fat,chubby blob with awful looking dark circles under my eyes and pimples on my face due to that-time-of-the-month syndrome...And now ugly looking insects bites on both my legs which causes me to stay away from skirts..I guess the only thing that i was proud of is my nicely painted nails..But for goodness sake,who the heck looks at ppl's finger nails???haha....So bottom line is,nothing at all to be proud of...What happened to that Adriana who used to walk around in full of confidence bout how she looked and not bothered if she was chubby???I really need to get my life in order again...I guess in India,i never bothered to look nice or presentable...i just wore watever i wanted cause i know there isnt anyone to impress and even when i did dress up nicely,people will start their staring frenzy...So it totally rule out the idea of actually dressing up,putting on make up and feel good about yourself...For me to dress up in india,is actually a very rare occasion-only when im going out and im ready to impress ppl...so i guess i kinda lost touch in looking my very best when i go out...hmph...
Then later,i finally had the chance to have the car to myself where i drove to the nearest park to do my now-not-so-routine jog..Been lagging behind in my exercise...But i will keep my words...i will be engross in my workout this hols...will not mob around at home...So anyways,i finally got the car to myself and finally get to go jog...So as i was driving,nearly reaching there,at the traffic light,it started to drizzle....AH damn....in all days when i have the car to finally go jog,its gonna start raining!LOSER....Nevertheless,i just drove into that park and complete wat i,well,started?lol...Said a little prayer God please stop the rain fr pouring til i finish my jog and put on my shoe and there i ran...
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After completing my 1st round,fatigue started to build up in legs and i started panting really hard....Gosh,im so unfit!I dun usually feel this tired after only jogging one round...oh well,i havent jog for a long time,so...Heart rate increases,Blood pressure increases,Respiration rate increases,vasodilation of the arterioles and venules..and wat else is supposed to happen during exercise physiology???ah damn,cant remember...hehe...anyhow,after completing 2nd round,i had to stop my jogging coz it was rather hard to breath dy...:P then then...i walked...and the most unfortunate thing happen...i felt like going toilet to relieve myself...i guess i was drinking to much before jogging....hmmm....since when exercise physiology causes micturation reflex to occur????ugh...In all days when i finally have the car to finally go jogging,i feel like going to the toilet...LOSER
Once satisfied with myself,i quickly went back to my car,(starting to hear the thunder frequently)drank a bottle full and quickly go into the car...OK rain,u can pour down now ...And it did,it started pouring like cats and dogs....ok ok...no,i was just kidding...it didnt start raining...didnt even see a single drop of rain til i reach back home...so much of hoping it will rain..Did i mention that its very hot in kuching currently???Owh i hope it rains,at least it will suit the mood im in now....
Til then....cherios!!(ok,that sounded a little too cheerful...lol)
Song on laptop : Angel of Mine by Monica
Why is it so hard for me to make my OWN decision?If given a chance i will never make decisions for myself...Many of times,i sit in front of the menu not knowing wat to order,hoping that sumone will decide for me what to eat...esp when i dont understand half the things written in the menu...hahah....
Was invited by my friend to join him and 15 of them to Santubong to spend a night there...Was really interested with the idea despite the fact that im not so close to most of them and i don't know some of the people...And to make the decision harder,it was on my 1st weekend here and i didnt want to miss church for it.My parents wont be so pleased either....But anyways,i asked my parents if i could go,hoping they were decide for me whether i should go or not...when given the green light by my parents,i was still torned...was still undecided whether i should go for it,spend one nite with ppl i hardly know or should i just drop this golden opportunity of meeting up with old frens and rekindle sum friendship...i have no idea why is it soo hard for me to make one stupid decision,esp now that my parents have given me that green light...was really hoping that my parents will give me a big fat no to solve all my problems...i guess i was afraid that i will feel left out among them and would end up not enjoying my time there....if it was just a day trip,i think i wouldnt have minded so much...ugh,Adriana,wats wrong with u???why cant u just make one stupid decision for urself???dont u want to get from the house and have fun with friends???ugh
Nevertheless,i went in the end and suprising,i really enjoyed my time there...got to see all the different character of people and discover things bout my old friends...but the bad thing is,now my leg is itching like mad from all the sand fly bites...must resist from scratching them or they will leave scars on my leg...hahah....
two sweet couples walking down the beach enjoying the serenity there
look...the crabs are rather artistic too...
tata!!!
When was the last time you thought to yourself that you needed to change your hairstyle and actually come about doing it?When was the last time you changed that old,worn out pair of shoe you have on for as long as you can remember?When was the last time u changed your handphone coz the old one was starting to give your problems?When was the last time you had to change your lifestyle because the lifestyle u are currently having is spoiling either your lungs or your liver or your heart?
I use to think that changes were good...well,at least ppl tell me that changes are good...But are they really good?Sumtimes we do realize that some people,instead change for the better,has change for the worst.Its funny how people can change from one extreme to another...one minute they are your best of best friends and the next moment, KA-BOOM...they are stabbing you from behind...One minute,you are laughing away with them,the other minute,you are yelling at each other and probably wont talk to each other anymore..
But i somehow feel that changes are important,depending on what kind of change it is,i guess...The change should make you a better person all together,right?Years back,i always wanted to change my eating habit,since i was bigger last time...never got around doing it coz i was just plain lazy to get up from my comfort zone...til i started fasting and thats when i realize that change will only happen if u start trying...and thats when i begin to slowly change my eating habit,and lost about 15kg...but sad to say now,i lost that determination to eat almost nothing for the day...haha...so to change,u will need to get out from that comfort zone...it might be,being on that cozy bed,sleeping all day long or the feeling of familiarity of the things around that prevents u from changing...Then as you get up from that comfort zone,change must take place slowly but surely,you will see the results soon..and alot of determination must follow that...if there isnt any determination,then you will fall back into that comfort zone again...
What changes are good u may ask me now...well,changing to a better person means treating other people better...making them smile and when you begin to care for other people more than u care for yourself...when your vocabulary has more YOU in it and less ME or I.Changing for a better person means quiting smoking esp after being told by your friends or loved ones so many times...Having a healthy lifestyle of exercising at least 30 mins a day and chose to eat more greens and drink more plain water...Change to be a more generous person,giving to others,esp when they are in need...And at the same time learn to receive too :)....Changes will only take place after you decide what and in which area you should change...List them down and start by slowly changing,step by step...
So im determined to change to be a better person...smile more,love more and care more... I dont want my frens to end up talking about how much i changed for the worst...instead i wanna leave a lasting impression on ppl,a good one...haha...
Til then,i think i must CHANGE the stupid alanis morrissette song playing on my laptop...Its spoiling my calm mood...Tata
2 more practicals to go!!!!I cant wait!!!Yippee!!!!!
Im now In the common hostel internet room now....i just canceled my personal internet connection the other day and now im missing it terribly...the computer here does not have msn and i tried downloading it the otherday but it just cant...damn...and the damn keyboard of this computer is soooo damn keras!!!aand the keypad is not working properly...the 'a' button is oversensitive and so is the stupid spacebar..:(
a little update on my life, my uni exams will be starting on the 29th may...so soon yet i feel so unprepared...there is just sooo much to study !!!but i guess everybody feel the same way too....hmmm.....the bds students will be starting their uni exams tomolo and i can see the tension in their faces...which in turn makes me tension tooo....o_0
ugh...another thing why i hate commom internet rooms is that ther will be limited amount of working computers and sooo many ppl want to use it at the same time...a gal is waiting to use my pc and dia sangat busuk!!!gotta get out of here asap!!!til then,please do pray for me...for this exams....once its over,its bye bye 1st year mbbs in india!!!but must make sure i pass it first lah!!haha...and its hello malaysia!!!
huhuhuhuhuh
Song on laptop: Lean on me by i seriously dunno who :P
God's Masterpiece Is Mother
God took the fragrance of a flower...
The majesty of a tree...
The gentleness of morning dew...
The calm of the sea...
The beauty of the twilight hour...
The soul of a starry night...
The laughter of a rippling brook...
The grace of a bird in flight...
Then God fashioned from these things
a creation like no other,
And when the masterpiece was through,
He called it simply-MOTHER
-Herbert Farnham-
All these years,to me Mothers' day is just another normal day but the only difference is,on this very day we honour our mother and let her know how much u love her...It never occured to me,why the heck did people created such a day as this?Must we wait for one particular day in a year to express our thankfulness and show how much we love our mother???Thats why i never took this very day seriously....Til i started staying away from home...That is when i started to appreciate my mom more,in fact,its when i started appreciating my family more...its because of them, im here today....Like people always say,when u cant have sumthing anymore,that is when u realize how important is it to you...So by staying away from home,i make sure i do not miss mothers' day or fathers' day...
Today as i sat in church today and when i received a sms from one of my local friends,he told me how he is celebrating mothers' day...For some reason,at that very moment as i was reading it,i suddenly felt sooo homesick....suddenly i missed my mom sooo much...The longing to see her and to hear her voice,to tell her how much i love her,pains me sooo much that i started to shed tears...haha....(i hope no one noticed!)Every year,at home,my brothers and I make it a point to make breakfast for our mom,even when most of the time i wont wake up early enough to help my brothers but,ahem,the thought is there...and i as the big sister would make either lunch or dinner for here....We dont really celebrate it in large scale coz my mom's bday will be around the corner too...My mother never expects anything from us but yet,its so fulfilling to see the smile on her face when she comes down from her room to find breakfast all ready for her...and the smile on her face when we all wish her 'happy mother's day'....
As i think about how much my mom cares for me,it really put me to shame to realize how imperfect i am as a daughter...Being a rebellious daughter,i am always refusing to listen to my mom's advice and would fight back whenever she is scolds me as a gesture of 'self-defence'...I remember once,both of us got into a terrible fight,up to the point that my mom,broke down and cry...and she even threaten to leave the hse...I really have no idea why and how can i be so cruel then...i didnt even apologize to her as i most probably think i was not wrong...and i knew that no matter what,my mom will still forgive me and she will still love me and forget bout it...and i was right,no matter how many times i argued with her or how many times i made her sad,she will be the first person to console me and she still showed me so much love,love that i sometimes do not deserve...But its through her persevered love that slowly changed me and moulded me to learn how to be a more graceful person and a less rebellious person.To be the person i am today...
I used to take things for granted when i was in the comfort of my home,til i started going to another state to stay.My parents are the people who always supported me in everything i do,constantly reminding me how much they love me and that they are always praying for me....In my 1st few months in ktt,i was really depressed and the terrible Celcom line made things worst...there was hardly any coverage in my room and the line was always cut off when im on the phone...So one day,i was soooo depressed and i was soooo homesick that i practically cried like a baby while talking to my mom(I very seldom cry in front of my parents) and she became so worried bout me that a few days after that incident,a parcel came for me from home and inside was a MAXIS sim card(coz maxis had better coverage in my college) That very moment i was sooo touched by that gesture,it made me cry like a pig again...haha...
Mother's Love
Her love is like an island,
In life's ocean, vast and wide
A peaceful, quiet shelter
From the wind,the rain and the tide
'Tis bound on the North by Hope
By Patience on the West
By Tender Counsel on the South
And on the East by Rest
Above it like a beacon of light
Shine Faith, and Truth and Prayer
And tru' the changing scences of life,
I find a haven there.
-Author Unknown-
The author of my anatomy book,BD Chaurasia said in one of his topics that 'since God cant be everywhere,He created Mothers'....Despite the fact that God is omi-presence(He can be everywhere) but we can never deny the fact that Mothers are like jewels,a gift from God...Someone He created to show us love,like the way He loves us...have u wonder why is it that even how badly u acted,ur mom still never fail to show u unconditional love?Well coz mothers are created in the image of God,to show unconditioned love...:)And because of that we must always HONOUR OUR FATHER AND MOTHER(one of the 10 commandments)I didnt do much for mothers' day this year...i sent her a mothers' day card cum birthday card 2 weeks ago and i called her today....but its funny that i didnt have to guts to tell her how much i missed her...i guess i am never good in becoming all mushy mushy to my family members...hehe....but im sure she knows that i love her!Many words cant express the way i feel for her but im sure she knows deep down that i can never be more grateful to have a mother like her...Tho there are times when i do wish that i have a 'better' mother but thruthfully speaking, no one can replace my mom nor is there anyone on the surface of this earth is better than her...:)
LOVE U MOM!!!
my mom and I during mothers' day last year
' A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies;
She is clothe with strenght and dignity;
She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks of wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also,and he praises her:
"many women do noble things,
but u surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring praise at the city gate.'
Proverbs 31:10, 25-31
The jpa officers came to visit us again the weekend before our exams...This time,instead going to Hotel Taj manjarun,we went to eat at albeeman instead...food was sooo yummy but one thing...they really kedekut with the food :(...each person was only entitled to one piecd of chicken...and when we wanted to go for second round,there wasnt any food left...no refill too...:(
come...let's go!!!
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Anne says..." no,u are not having my ice cream"
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crazy ppl by the name of izreen and bull...hugz!
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Hmmm....My new boyfriend???think again!!Hong Ling and I
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hmmm...my bodyguards....muahahahha....
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dont u dare mess with us...well,at least him....ahem
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I have no idea why does chee chung wanted to wear those glasses...they belong to meng yee,btw....
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The two chinese gals in indian clothes...either we are too confused or we are just trying to blend in...
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them again...this time with another friend....loges
anyways,enjoy with the pictures!
Song on laptop : My World by Avril Lavinge
The sign board in front....
" Medic university"
drive slowly....
do not kill the students,
leave it to us......"
Yups,medic school is really killing the students in it slowly...bit by bit...haha...im really doubtful if we will all graduate as doctors or psycho patients...haha...No wonder Malaysia is short of doctors...hahahaha.....
Anyways,after almost one year of being in india doing medic,i have a list of conclusions to make....
WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MEDICAL STUDENT
1) Willing to sacrifice your sleep to prepare for class or for exams the next day
2) Willing to sacrifice looking good,having pimples all around your face and dark circles around your eyes
3) The feeling of fear before the exams,feeling like u dont know everything,that whatever u learnt has gone down the drain
4) Keeping your head up high even when u are scolded by the lecturers during practical exams and during viva
5) Feeling so stressed all the time and you feel like running away and quiting
6) Scarifice doing the things u like,scarifice playing around alot and scarifice having fun so often
7) Feeling so stupid in class when the rest in class can answer all the questions the lecturer ask
8) Feeling homesick in the midst of exams and u cant do anything bout it instead crying urself to bed
9) Letting the person u love so dear go as start your life in a new country coz 6 yrs is just too long
10) Getting up after the lecturer told u that u did badly for viva voce and not let that put u down
11) Able to face your fears
BUT ITS PRICELESS WHEN;
1) the lecturer tells u that u did well in the exams
2) the 1st distinction
3) finding new frens who also are facing the same problem as u
4) when the exams is finally over and u can spare one day just sleeping in the whole day
5) When u graduate as a doctor,and i think thats the ultimate gift anyone can have:)
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Song on laptop: Away from the Sun by Three Doors Down
Times flies so fast when you are having fun,people always say...then what happens to time when things are rough?My days here has been like a fluctuating graph,lately...at days,im having the time of my life but yet at days,im feeling so depressed to the point of running away from this place...
i still cant understand how can one incident change a person's perceptive on another person,even when the day before that they had have a great time together?And coz of that is willing to let go of a friendship?this has been bugging me this pass few days when i noticed that one of my fren is ignoring me...To me,friendship is far more important that anything else,much more important than having a boyfriend...Boyfriends will never last but Friends will always remain,no matter what happens in between...losing a friend is like losing a part of my body...It hurts me soooo much to see all my old school friends drifting further and further from me...and when i return home and realize that things are just aint the same as the way used to be,it hurts me even more...There isnt much to talk about anymore coz the circumstances has changed...Its inevitable that people change as time goes by,that ppl will find new friends,pick up a new hobby,have different interest...and before u know it,u dont stand on common grounds anymore...That is why i cant afford to lose my new found friend and the reason why it cringe me so much to realize that he(shall not enclose his name) is ignoring me now...
So i went over to talk to him today,after thinking bout it for 2 days and after gaining enuff courage to ask him whats wrong...and a few things he said strucked me...he told me that maybe the reason he acted like that was coz he cared for me too much that he is sumhow dissapointed at me...How can u be in a friendship if u dont care for the other person?i think its only when u start caring for each other,then that is when a friendship can be build...Oh well...Guess he must be really upset at me...:(so we talked and laid down what we both feel.But still when i asked him if things will be ok between us now,he was like,'i dunno'.. i really do hope things will get better between us after today...i believe that i did the best i could do...i just hope he sees my sincerity in it...
The new shopping mall opposite just open!!!now we have a cinema in mangalore,pizza hut,a big supermarket(just like carrefour) and a designer clothe shop-pentaloons...the cinema has been open for weeks dy...the movies are abit outdated but having a decent looking,huge cinema is way better than having none,rite??So far ive been there once to watch Fun with Dick and Jane...Well,the size of each cinema is real huge!! its actuallt as big as cinema 1 of gsc in midvalley...and when i enter it,I could smell fresh popcorn and man,it really feels like im back home in malaysia!!
then there's pizza hut...opened 3 days before easter...now,the big bazaar and pentaloons is opened...had their grand opening last friday...and omg,mangalore has never been that congested before!!!there were traffic jams outside our hostel and the mall was packed with people...Man,Mangalore is really developing now!!!Ill give the mall a few more months to finally have all the shops to open...and shopping in mangalore will be like heaven...hehehe...
exams are coming nearer and nearer....yet it i still have ALOT to study...ugh...jia you jia you adriana!!!will have to go now...guilt pangs!!
-signing off-
me!
"The Son of man must suffer many things at the hands of the elders,chief priests and teachers of the law,and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life"
Christians all over the world observed Good Friday yesterday...2000 yrs ago,God sent his one and only son to earth for one purpose.The purpose was to save us from our sins which the penalty for it was death...His purpose was for love...As predicted by the prophets years before Jesus's birth,He must suffer many things and be crucified on the cross and on the third day rise up from the death...so Jesus came to earth,made a dwelling among men,teaching them,loving them and healing all the diseases and sickness and to fulfil what the prophet said,to die for all of us,that we,his children will have eternal life.
"For God so loved the world,he gave His one and only Son.That whoever believes in Him shall not perish but will have eternal life" John 3:16
Jesus was betrayed,humililated,beaten and being mocked at..The time from his betrayal til his crucifixion is just so upsetting and painful when you think bout it..But have u ever wondered why its being called Good Friday?What is so good about this very day that its being called Good Friday?To me,indeed this very day is a Good Friday.Think about it,Jesus died for Us,for our salvation...He did this because he loves us all...And because of that very reason we should be happy...:)When Jesus died,the whole earth shook and the curtains in the temple was torn from top to bottom,symbolizing that we are no longer seperated from God,that we can go straight to God in prayer and praise...Jesus never took self pity on himself as he carried his cross..A large number of ppl followed him,including women who mourned and wailed for him.Jesus turned to them and said to them,'Daughters of Jerusalem,do not weep for me;weep for yourselves and for your children"(Luke 23:27-29)Then why should we mourn for Jesus?would he want to see us mourn for Him?
Im really thankful for this very day....when i think of what God did for me on the cross,it makes me feel so loved instead...The love God showed is uncondition,willing to sacrifice his life for us..will anyone sacrifice his life for u,if not for Jesus?think bout it...
Have u thank God yet?
Song on laptop: Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stefani
Liew and Cheng Yeow's birthday dinner(March 23rd at Cherry Square)
the cake-blackforest fr cafe coffee day...errr....no offence,but the cake suks like hell...Found difficulty finishing my slice of cake...
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chee chung trying to finish his slice of cake..notice his disgusted look...I warned him bout the cake dy,that it's gonna turn out bad but did he take heed of my advice???NO....and he nicely went to purchase that cake..hahah....
LESSON OF THE DAY : Dont try to act smart and try listen to other people's advice
The two birthday boys...For some reason they dont look 21 at all!!I wonder what's their secret...huhuhuhuh...:P
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Blow cheng yeow blow!!!harder,harder!!!LOL
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LOL...What does this picture look like?after the candle was blown we actually manage to force them to feed each other!!What is a birthday dinner without some entertainment,right?
looks like liew is much more creative in feeding...The cherrie didnt go into cheng yeow's mouth by the way...Liew really need to brush up on his aiming skill...lol
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Those present that day...
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happy faces...:)
i guess everybody had a good time that night...The dinner was nothing big or anything...sumthing small and casual...Ppl usually say the 21st bday should be celebrated in huge scale and its also symbolises freedom...nevertheless,small is better than none,right??That night ended up with a little cake fight(since there was so much cake left) in the restaurant,in front of eveybody like little kids(did i mentioned that they just turned 21??)...thank God we were not chased out fr the place if not sure damn paiseh!!!Hahaha...Im pretty sure once they got back to their hostel,sumthing 'bigger' awaited them...hahaha...
Last but not least,signing off....
Urs truly-adriana-
happy belated bday guys!!
song on laptop: What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts
Seems like im not the only one feeling all stressed up...I think everybody is feeling the same...just that some shows it and some just dont..im feeling much better now after the few weeks of feeling overstressed up and the feeling of indifference towards ppl...I dont really know if im totally ok or there awaits me,sumthing worst than i felt the pass few days...u know like they say,the calm before the storm...
Anyways,i was browsing the internet yesterday and i came across that song-what hurts most by rascal flatts...i seldom listen to country music but this band is really an exceptional...haha...this song is soo sad and its sooo touching...the music is also damn good...i guess i should blame grace for introducing me to this band...so now im rather confused bout the type of music i actually like...infact,thinking bout it,i like all sorts of music,frm hip hop to RnB,Rock to country music...hmmm....lastnite i watched the video clip of this song and actually used up 15Mb downloading the video clip...haha...Erm...i dont quite understand it...is the gal pregnant???wat do u all think?man i sooo love the song!!!
Now im in the search of that song...wanna have it...In fact i have a few songs in mind i want...There is Fire by babyface(been bugging my frens online to send me that song...tried receiving fr charles numerous of times but keep having error in transfer...ugh) maybe i should ask my guy frens that has unlimited internet excess to download for me...huhuhuhu....
Been eating so much lately...Tried so hard to stop myself but i just cant...could it be due to stress???Gosh...its like i come back from lunch and im craving for biscuits...then at night,ill be eating nonstop...As long as there is food in front of me,i wont stop eating it til the whole thing is finished...
dark fantasy...yum yum...looks like oreo eh?
the amount of books i need to study...0_o
wat i do most of the time~~~music!!!
my beloved...
actually im very sleepy now...its time for my afternoon nap...if not ill fall asleep in class later...
til then...
Song on computer: sum chinese song by sum chinese singer...LOL Tunnel by Third Day
Been rather busy lately...1st with the interclass fashion show competition thingy then we had to represent our college in the inter mahe (UTSAV) thingy for a cultural show and for the fashion show...(this time we didnt win anything...:( ) Exams is just around the corner and im yet to finish studying EVERYTHING...Cant seem to find the time to study...Now that UTSAV has come to an end,I must really put my arse down and get some studying done before its too late...God help me!
Day by day im becoming more and more stressed up...I realized that ive redrawn myself from ppl...i talk less now and i joke less too...ive become more of a listener than a opinion giver...and most of the time,i find it hard to concentrate on ppl too...And sadly enough my friends here are not helping me feel better...instead of the warmth i so long to feel, i am treated will cold shoulders...instead of small small talks i so long,the only thing they talk about is exams or about moving out...At times i feel like screaming out and running away from this place..sometimes i just feel like sleeping in and not meet anyone...Is this the warning sign of me becoming totally MAD?...Well theoritically yes..How i wish i was back home where worries have no space in my mind...where i can make myself sane again...
The other day we few malaysians had a dinner in our pastor's house...We ate and spoke...Once,as he was asking us bout our christian life,he made me realize that ive stopped growing spiritually eversince i came here...im like a church clown,well advance in age but stunted in growth...i really wonder if this is the cause of me feeling so upset all the time?the cause of my stress-ness and my im-not-in-a-good-mood-today-so-f**k-off-ness?Most probably it is...Havent actually spoke to God lately...would 'try to study' till late at nite and by then ill fall flat on my bed,fast asleep totally forgotten to say my prayers before going to bed...How can a relationship grow witout any communication?many of times i really have the intention of having a long talk with God and to read 5 chapters per day but when the time comes,im either too lazy or ill jus push it aside...Im so fed up with my selamba-ness and im sick of blogging bout it...Im always saying but never doing...UGH!!!! wats up with me?????GOD HELP ME!!!!
My frens went to manipal today and i stayed behind...and OMG....WAS I BORED TO DEATH!!!is this how its gonna feel like staying all alone???That sux...After church this morning,i went back to sleep till about 1.30pm...didnt go down for lunch instead i tried to study...actually succeeded in finishing my portion on spinal cord today...Time was going by so slow...TIK TOK TIK TOK...1 minute,2 minute,3 minute...(oh sh*t its just 4pm)Been pacing up and down my hostel and i realize that for some reason my hostel is extra quiet today...hmmm....and that actually made me feel worst...0_o My roomate should be coming back soon..I hope she does...soon...TIK TOK TIK TOK...1 min,2min,3min....
Am I glad the fashion show is finally over...as u know,each batch is supposed to come up with a 30 minutes fashion show to potray different themes.The best show with the highest marks wins.
Everything was so last minute.even up to the very last day,we were still rather unsure about certain rounds.we havent even practise the grand finale yet...well,we never practised on the actual stage.On the day of the fashion show,17th march. the seniors allowed us to practise only ONCE on the actual ramp at 7am in the morning(can u believe that?) So as un-ready as we are,we just tried the stage out..To my dismay and shock,the stage was damn slippery!!!and it was even more slippery with my heels on.to make things worst,in all the round im in,i would have to walk fast. FAST+SLIPPERY GROUND = DISASTER...So i was quite upset then that i could not walk properly(even my partner noticed that i couldnt walk properly)And I was even more upset when i saw all the seniors being sooo skinny and tall...me on the other hand-fat fat and short short...so not model material...
But i guess God has always a way of speaking to me...The whole day i was feeling inferior about myself,and my partner wasnt helping by always correcting my foot work coz we can never walk in par(but we worked out our differences and i manage to bribe him with my white choc!)The whole night went out well,despite the fact that i made a few mistakes...hehe...but what was most important was i really enjoyed my time...enjoyed the rush of adrenaline as i change as fast as i can to my next outfit...the rush when the crowd went wild when u step out and make a pose...haha...And really thank God that our show ended in exactly 30 mins time.so no marks was being deducted..For all our hardwork,we came in 2nd.Then we also won the best mc title and also best female fresh face of the year-me...i was so shocked when my name was being announced..suddenly the whole world was spinning...is this how those pageant beauties felt when they were crown miss world??everyone around me came hugging me and congratulating me...
Maybe God is using this way to remind me that i am pretty...and that i should never ever think less of myself coz by doing that i am only looking down on His creativity,in His creation...I have always tell myself that im not pretty enough or im FAT .Maybe He wants me to put a stop in all that...No matter how i look or how fat i am i will always be beautiful in God's eyes..And that is what matters...
that night i went back feeling soooo exhausted and yet happy...went back to celebrated gracie's bday(love u gracie!!)...we manage played a prank on her with meng yee's brilliant idea...she made a 'fake' cake out of flour and decorated it with condense milk and choc powder...it was damn fun to spat the cake on her face...and she didnt even retaliate or took revenge on us...too bad...i really hope she enjoyed her time despite the fact that her make up was all smuged...haha...
grace cutting her 'real' cake-chocolate fantasy fr cafe coffeday...yum yum...
the clothes we wore during grand finale
perdy and i-my partner
haha...evil me...a peep in guy's changing room...they putting on make up!!
the convention hall,where the fashion show was held
till then!
Song on laptop: Hollaback Girl(uncencored version) by Gwen Stefani
Been rather busy lately...As u know we are having a medic week now and guess wat?Im taking part in the fashion show...I always knew that modelling is in my blood :P...just too bad im too short and im too chubby...our fashion show will be on this coming friday(17th March) and truthfully speaking,only a handful of us are actually 'bersemangat' for it...the rest all selamba only...we hardly get a practice where all the 'models' are present...
Been walking since 4pm jnow til 9pm with my high heels and not to mention i wore heels in class as well...so my leg really aching now...bluek...and i always thought i had stamina with heels...haha...i guess not...the fashion show is divided into 5 parts-
1)Spectrum of colour.
Im In this part,where ill be dressed in a gaun,my partner in a tux
2)Spectrum of region
Costume fr all the different region in india,so they come with sarees and linga and punjabi suits.
3)Spectrum of age
Different era,cowboys,hippies and rockers.Ill be dressed as a hippie in this part
4)Spectrum of country
Different countries with its national custume...
5)Grand finale
We all will be coming out in black clothes...i might want to wear a black saree coz i do not have any black dress here!
i think the ideas are awesome but i really hope we can pull it off...We are hiring a choreographer but also dunno what we are paying him for...he comes late all the time and when he does come,all he does is talk and nothing much is done...So now practice is done without him...haha...he thought us how to catwalk..."move ur hips...walk slowly...sway ur hips!!!" oh gosh...and one day he was asking us to walk fast,and another minute he was asking us to walk slow...ugh...and he can actually say that we are all not potential models...well,for ur information mister,we are medical students,not in modelling school...0_o
The bird flu has subsided in India so the mess has started serving chicken again today,man,its been a really long time since we actually ate chicken!!!So yea,i finally took my chicken today...yohoo!!!
Im not feeling well lately...Its been 2 days.yesterday i was down with a cold and today im having a sorethroat...:( very painful!!Dont worry,ive been drinking loadsa water til i visit the toilet so frequently...huhuhu...
Til thennnn
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